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Bye grandpa ,
Supposed to be a happy day. Yea Sushi ? Happy 9th month anniv. Didn't get to celebrate but we got to see each other. Had bad feelings the pass few days and I thought Im gonna fail my paper or something. But instead , this was what happened to my grandpa.
Family problems all came about.
Dad called and told me to come to Toapayoh w sis and maid. Took cab and rushed there. Saw yeye lying down on the bed. Cold and pale. He wasn't breathing TT Called him , shake him. Nothing works. He left. Waited for all cousins and family to come and see him. Aunt came late and shouted and cried about not seeing yeye for the last time. Momma was mad at her for coming late as if she dont care. Dad scolded back and wanted to hit somebody. Korkor stopped dad etc. Whole family had gone nuts. Children stayed in a room.
We should be happy that he left in he's sleep and not suffer any pain before he goes. God will take good care of him. And so will yeye look after all of us. A 84 year old is really old. I miss yeye.
Grew up in toapayoh. Momma & Yeye looked after me till I was seven and moved back to Pasir Ris when I had another younger sister and parents hired a maid. Momma & Yeye seemed to be the ones who dote on me the most till now. Eventhough Yeye scolds and beat me I still miss him.
I miss him calling me ahboy when I misbehaved. I miss him calling me shueiniaokia ( Little kid ? ) I miss him scolding me when I wanted to watch my cartoons when he's watching the news. I miss going church w them. I miss him bringing me to macs early in the morning. Going to the market in the morning. Watching him talk to other old folks at night. Cursing the people staying on top of us when they're making noise upstairs when we're sleeping. Buying coffee at the coffee shop. Watching him step on cockroaches when I run away from one. I miss him holding my hands and fetch me home from school. Last last month he couldn't grip anything w he's left hand anymore. But he could grip my hand w he's right hand and squeeze it veh tightly. I miss yeye ~ TT
I dont want yeye to go .
I want to go back and live w him .
Get scolded and beaten by him .
Go out and walk w him .
Hope he is happy up there now .
Read the newspaper today. And found yeye's picture in it. Yea he should be happy. The whole big family was there yesterday. All he's children , and grandchilds. We'll all miss you. Takecare.
Not gonna post for the next few days.
Thankyou :
Besty , For understanding and being by my side as always. Love you so damn much.
Sushi , For cheering me up yesterday.
Happy 9th month , how could you think that I forgot. Tsk , neh trust me.
Arcade korkor [: , For an wei-ing me ? See you soon . Now no time at all.
Sorry :
Kenny , for not replying you. I didn't had any mood to answer your questions.
Snail , for not replying too and rejecting your calls. Just leave me alone for awhile.
But still thanks for your messages.
I am the resurrection and the life :
he who believes in me will live even when he dies. John 11:25